I thought we

Were forever

That was

A mistake

You wrote it

Down a pencil

Guess it

Got erased

Drawing on

My weakness

Look what

You create

A masterpiece

Of everything

You taught

Yourself

To hate

I had to

Log off

Your passwords

Changed

You always

Tried to run

I wasn’t

Down to chase

Your trauma

Made you numb

I tried to

Give you faith

You took

My kindness

And threw it

Right back

In my face

Ashamed to say

I loved you

And it hurts me

‘Cause I

Actually tried

Your truth

Was based off

Of lies

Your love was

Conditionally mine

Forgave you

Multiple times

That’s why

I had to

Finally walk away

It hurt me

To leave

But was

Killing me

To stay

The story of

My life

This chapter

And page

Is getting

Ripped out

And thrown in

Emotional flames

To be honest

I don’t hate you

This my only

Way to grieve

What you want

Isn’t always

What you need

I remember

Days I’d beg

And I’d plead

For you

To just calm down

And provide me

With peace

Your words

Used to hurt me

They would

Bring me

To my knees

Called me

Pathetic

Trash

Weak

So I got strong

Got back

On my feet

Picked you up

Off the sidewalk

Through you back

To the streets

I

Don’t wanna

Talk about

Those times

That you lied

Don’t wanna

Talk about

Those times

That I cried

No

Don’t wanna

Talk about

Those times

You denied

All the truths

That I spewed

That I knew

Deep inside

The pressure

I was feeling

That was

Right up

To my neck

The anxiety depression

That was weighing

On my chest

The constant allegations

The blatant disrespect

The time

That I lost

Or the money

That I spent

I

Was going crazy

I was a shell

Of a man

Trapped in your cage

Lost in your maze

Blinded by love

Addicted to the pain

The highs

And the lows

The storm

And the rain

I started therapy

To cope

Because you drove

Me insane

Gassed me

Right up

Then

Emptied my tank

So don’t you

Try to spin

The Block

When you see

I’m doing great

Or that I’m happy

Or I got

Another woman

In your place

Because I gave you

Too many chances

To understand

That Pain

Sounds different

When it’s coming

From a man

We’re not

Allowed to feel

Be real

Explain

Express

And when we do

We lose

The upper hand

We only

Have value

Based on what

We can provide.

I spoke your

Love language

You didn’t

Understand mine

You pushed me

To the edge

Played like

You were blind

And then you

Blamed all of

Your actions

On your

Zodiac sign

Never again